Tonight I had the wonderful priveledge to be involved in an online seminar with Kim Mutch Emerson and Jenn Givler.  Many of you may know them from being guest speakers on Heal Yourself Talk Radio talking about the Laws of Attraction.

I started studying the Laws of Attraction a little over a year ago, I tried out several different teachers and didn’t quite find the one that resounded with me until I met Kim and Jenn.  Before I go into the “WOW” moment I had tonight, I just have to say that when you are looking to study anything you must always be on the search for a coach or teacher that you click with or you may do what I did and move away from the teachings you are looking for because you don’t feel comfortable or it just isn’t for you…it may not necessarily mean the teaching or course is not for you but that you and the teacher or not in sync with each other.

Tonight on the call in seminar during the teachings Kim gave a meditation that was so powerful I was transported to a place that I love, a place I know I will never be able to go to again….this is a place that I have only gone to a couple times, a friends property that is up for sale….so I can now only go there in my dreams and meditations but this place has such a profound sense of happiness, calmness and spirituality that I need in my life that I can now focus on the spot and go there. For some who have not done meditation it may sound weird but that is what happens for me.

Kim’s meditation was about healing, letting go of anger, letting go of past hurt, letting go of our past life…Kim told us to bind up our fears, to let go of them to watch them in our head as they soar to the heavens and we release these fears and anger to God. Before I go into what I experienced I want to share a little of the anger that I have been dealing with….

The past few weeks have been very trying for my family.  I do not often share what goes on personally in my life, but for this post I feel it is needed to be said.

My FIL lives with us, he can be very emotionally and verbally abusive.  Most of the time we can let it go…but something he said to my husband last night was the last straw, all the anger all the hurt and all the fear come rushing to the front of my soul.  I watched as this one sentence tore my husband down to a child once again…I watched as my kids stood there, mouths open…fear in their eyes as this one sentence was said….

I will not repeat this sentence as it would only give it credence in my life again, that is gone and taken care of it has been released to God…

During the past week, the doctor’s have told me that my husband on top of being a Type 1 diabetic may also have Whipple Disease.  After doing much research I know it is curable if caught in time…I know in my heart he will be ok…but that tiny bit of fear of losing my best friend in the world, my lover, my one and only after 18 years of being together and facing more struggles then anyone needs to face…this fear was debiliating me.

All of these things from the past few days had me starting to feel torn down; until tonight.

During the meditation, the releasing of my past, the releasing of the hurt I started crying…I had my eyes closed, sitting in the middle of my son’s room in the dark listening to Kim’s meditation.  I was transported to my favorite spot, I could smell the trees, hear the river talk and feel the breeze on my face.  As Kim led us deeper I saw myself wrapping up all the pain and anguish from the past few days, throwing it up in the air and watching the wind grab the pieces of paper that in my mind represented all the anger and fear and hurt…watched them float up to God, I started crying, tears running down my face yet they were not tears of hurt or pain they were tears of joy…tears of relief….tears of happiness.  Yes, I pray and I ask God for help but sometimes your mind can get going and you cannot focus…through meditation I am able to do all of this and be in touch with God on a level that makes me calm down and my mind be quiet.

Had it not been for Kim and Jenn today before the seminar and during the seminar, I may not have been able to deal with the pain or help my husband deal with this pain and open slap on the face…defeating words…

My family’s healing has started.  Thanks to the geniune care and loving attitudes of two wonderful woman who I have had the greatest pleasure of meeting online.

Healing is a day to day process.  Healing hurts.  Healing is good.  Sometimes you just need someone to be there to listen, to give you encouragement, to tell you they love you…this is what these two ladies have given to me.  Thank you very much!

I felt very inspired after the show and was led to create this piece of graphic work: